I don’t know if I still have my mind,it tends to take leave without first notifying me.I call my mind a scaredy cat;it can’t seem to handle my contemplation overdrive modes.I don’t know if it’s a female thing or if I have real issues but each time I have to deal with the real issues in my life, I stop thinking.I just go into a panicky stand by state.I have a paper on Saturday for which I haven’t been studying for the simple reason that my mind convinced me that I can’t do it.But I want to do it,and pass highly like I know I can.It’s probably the hardest thing to be up against yourself every single day.And so to you mind,I write this little memo.
FORGOTTEN
I don’t know when you stopped fighting but just so you know my spirit hasn’t forgotten.I don’t know how you get off not believing but just so you know,my spirit hasn’t forgotten.You may shun my strength,call it petty and fickle but my inner self is smarter than all your braincells combined.See,unlike you I can’t even come up with brilliant punch lines,but unlike you I know to dare to cross lines set by circumstances telling me I can’t.
Yes I can go on,and Iam doing that Just now.You may have have forgotten how to move off the track when a fast train is approaching but just so you know my spirit knows not to be paralysed by fear.And my spirit will fight you with everything it has,till you and I see eye to eye,that because Iam,I will.And because I will I can.
So dear mind,mischievious and unrelenting in wanting to take me down,just so you know I haven’t forgotten that I determine what you think and therefore say to me.I will not let you have a life of your own because then you would enslave me in your crippling unbelief.Once you almost robbed me of my sanity but ever since I snatched it back,I haven’t forgotten how to be free.Just thought you might need to know…
